So as I turn another year older in my 30s there is a quote that very much comes into my mind.
In life we do things. Some we wish we had never done. Some we wish we could replay a million times in our heads. But they all make us who we are, and in the end they shape every detail about us. If we were to reverse any of them we wouldn’t be the person we are. So just live, make mistakes, have wonderful memories, but never ever second guess who you are, where you have been, and most importantly where you are going.”— Carrie Bradshaw, Sex and the City
I have grown so much this past year. I learned to be patient with myself. I took a step to put my mental health first. I realized that nothing is truly worth my inner peace. I have finally come to realize that happiness is not a destination it is a journey. I found out the hard way that bad people do not deserve to have a place in my life. On the flip side I also have made so many strong female bonds this year and I am so thankful. It took me a while to get here but I can honestly I am surrounded by a lot of beautiful souls. I’m not exactly where I want to be in my life but I know that I will be there someday. I am confident that I am on the right path. I think I’ve finally come to embrace my journey and not focus so much on where I land. I have always wanted so desperately to “live happily ever after” when I should have been more focused on how exciting every new chapter is. Every page of my story is unique and this year has definitely been different to say the least.
This has been an awful year. Between the Pandemic and the horrible Racial oppression that has continued to plague our country. However, it has really shown me a lot about myself and taught me how mentally strong I really am. The pandemic was a major challenge because I was pretty much alone with myself for a while. I didn’t have the normal time outs and breaks with friends. I also realized how much I missed teaching and my students. It taught me not to take anything for granted. I miss all of the charity work and all of the kids I met along the way. I also terribly miss working as a princess party performer. I miss the convention scene and regret ever complaining about it. I don’t think I truly realized how amazing last year was. Last summer was one of the most eye opening yet best summers I’ve ever had. I am truly grateful for all of those memories. I hope once this world reopens I can make so many more like that.
Looking into the future.. I hope I get a step closer to all I wish to achieve. I hope to meet more children and bring more joy. I hope to bring new depth to my cosplays. I hope to be a better and more appreciative teacher than I was last year. I hope that the happiness I wish for when the clock hits 6:16pm every day occurs a lot during this trip around the sun, like it did last year. I hope that I am also able to take this blog to the next level. I apologize for my short comings. I promise this year, this blog will be filled with more life experiences, fashion advice, food recommendations, cosplay, photo shoots and more. Just bare with me while we get everything back on track. Here’s a BIG thank you to everyone who constantly supports me and to everyone who reads this. Stay tuned because I promise the best is yet to come!
I also wanted to share with you this beautiful video I woke up to from my dearest friends. It hit me right in the feels! Thank you to all my cosplay and NY Avengers family for this incredible video. I am honored to be your Captain.